Wednesday, November 17, 2010

A new life...

Sleeping in a semi-sitting position, many hospital stays and clinic visits, living because of an at-home IV medicine and then later by a life support machine, living because of technology-- It was all eye opening for me. Not only because I wondered why I was going through this, but shocked when I came to the realization that I would be dead without advancements in medicine and machinery. A machine was pumping my blood for me. My heart did not have to do much anymore because this life support device was acting as my most vital organ. I lived on this for two weeks when I received the best news of my life. Just days before, the doctors told me I had only a few more days left on the machine. I had to receive a donor heart by Monday. Saturday night came and my doctor arrived with a huge smile on his face. “Megan we have a heart for you if you would like to accept it”. I will never forget it. Signing the paper was giving me new life. My doctor was offering me a bright beginning…a new life. Why wouldn’t I sign up for it?

I received my heart on Sunday, April 18th, just one day before “Monday”.

Experiencing all these things is way different than looking back on them now. Just hours before we heard the news of my new heart, my parents were told, “She is too sick to receive a transplant.” I had developed pneumonia. After all this waiting…after believing…after trusting in Him…after having a good attitude about everything. Too sick to receive a new heart? Why did He wait so long? Why me? Why?

Because I was so sick I did not know this horrible ‘death statement’. However, I am sure all those thoughts would have been running through my head. Before ‘the news’ came I remember being so weak I could not talk anymore. I had a large breathing mask on my face and I wrote notes to my family so I could communicate. There were many other things that happened on this frightful day: fights with the enemy, severe blood loss, my family looking at me with those ‘goodbye’ eyes... My family, strangers and friends didn’t think I was going to make it. God came through. My white blood cell count improved. My temp went away. I was getting better. I was getting better just hours after they told me I could NOT receive a heart if it came. Was this God? I believe so.

I will never forget the embrace of my doctor after he told me a heart was available. It felt much like the embrace of Jesus. They were strong arms of comfort and life wrapped around my shoulders.



My doctor offered me life, a new beginning. He gave me the choice of accepting or rejecting this offer. I want to live. I chose life. Jesus has offered us life. He wants to give us a spiritual heart transplant. The pain is great and the road is hard just like a physical heart transplant, but the benefits are even greater. Why wouldn’t you sign up for it?

8 comments:

  1. Oh Meg....you keep making me cry :) Thank you for sharing this with us...love you girl!

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  2. Megan you are so brave and are an inspiration to all waiting for those magic words We have a heart for you. God has blessed me in knowing you when and if I do get a heart you will be in that heart.
    Be Well
    God Bless
    Ray

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  3. Amazing your story is So AMAZING!! Praise God I love you sweetheart!! thank you for reminding us how Great our God is!!

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  4. Wow Megan! God has blessed you with the gift of words! Your writing is beautiful! What a great metaphor you have presented! God is amazing and how awesome it is that all we have to do is accept that?!?! Thank you for sharing your story! God is truly using you in a miraculous way! Your story reminds me so much of Isaiah 38 where King Hezekiah asked God to let him live longer when he was on the brink of death. God granted him that request and let him live 15 more years. Instead of giving God the glory for healing him, he chose to give glory to himself. You are the exact opposite, Megan. You have been given this second life and are using it to give God the glory! You are an amazing testament to God's amazing love and grace. Thank you so much again for sharing! Keep it up! Hope you have a blessed day! :)

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  5. Meg, let's write a book! Ive told you this before, but just know once more that your life, your testimony has offered perspective and encouragement to me over this last year. You've been my personal angel on more than one occasion and I praise God for you :)

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  6. Your such an amazingly strong person! I just came across this blog this evening and am so sad that you had to go through all of that at such a young age but am so glad you got through it. You're even a stronger person now! God Bless!

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  7. Hi Megan- I ran across your story on The Barnes-Jewish website. I wanted to say hello and God Bless you! I'm happy you're doing so well! Although I have been lucky enough not to need a heart transplant, I have battled congenital heart disease my whole life and had 3 surgeries in St. Louis (my last being in Feb). I can relate to the fear, worry,the physical weakness...and also the determination! I'm proud of the way you and your family told your very important story! I wish you love, peace and happiness in the amazing life ahead of you! :)

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  8. Jenna (Freeman) WhitmoreMay 24, 2011 at 3:07 AM

    Megan- you may not remember me, but I met you at NCCS years ago. When you got sick, Josh Ochs had posted on facebook asking for prayers for you, so I looked into it. I couldnt believe what I saw, and ever since then I followed your fathers notes and blogs, hoping and praying for the best for you. We may not know each other, but I have to tell you how incredible it is to read this story in your own words. Your pictures speak volumes, and your story has managed to keep the tears in my eyes. You are an amazing person, and I admire everything I know about you. Your faith and conviction is so beautiful and real. Thank you Megan for showing us all how to be grateful and trusting in God. Congratulations on everything going on for you now! I couldnt be happier for you!

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